I am sorry for not speaking up, I just couldn't find the right words how I'm breaking and bruising, all this self abusing with this voice in my head that tells me, I was never enough.
Because growing up without comfort in your own skin, seems so pointless when all you do is try to please everyone that pushes you away.
I tried my best to fake a smile, just so you can't see what i hide.
And with the cancer blooming inside, that will someday end my fucking life.
I tried to change myself, to fit in, to hide in a shell.
A bastard child with no perspective, so afraid of his own reflection.
And I'm just so scared that I might never be content myself,
because all I do is try to please everyone that pushes me away.
The worst nightmare I ever faced was my youth.
Wake up.
credits
from Dead Youth,
released April 12, 2020
Drum Recording and Guitar/Bass DI Tracking by Florian Kliemke.
Guitar/Bass Reamping and Vocals done by Christian Bethge at Rama Recording Studios.
Mixed and mastered by Lewis Johns at the Ranch House Production Studios.
Great record, but also purchasing the whole album is worth it for We vs. Us alone; one of the great raging epics of the last decade for sure. So many stages, executed to perfection. Unreal. visiblenoise00
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